i like you very much but you don't notice me. infatuations can be so wonderful, yet so heart-wrenching.
school's out. i'm burned out and in desperate need of a break from that routine. i pray that during these holidays i would be productive. i don't want to be sucked into the internet and the social media and pretend to live my life.
home's been tiring. i've been emotionally drained. i need to recharge.
i've been cursing a lot in my mind, though i hardly let any slip out of my lips. it's pretty negative up here. i should stop, because it's turning into a bad habit.
i appreciate all my friends. they make my life so much better. i don't know what i would do without them. whatsapp groups are such lifesavers on my daily 9pm trips home.
here's a toast to a wonderful holiday, on an emotional and mental level.
2. I'm that ninja taking sneaky shots infront of refrigerated display cases
3. top-left clubmasters which i'll never own
4. helped my sister pick out spectacles today and stumbled upon another pair of perfect frames. if only i was rich ..
5. finally got my hands on the swatch i've been eyeing for more than a year. convinced the diva to get the other design too!
it reminds me much of a cat's iris. a cat that i've never had. and this one simply needs no reasoning.
6. the burgundy highwaisted jeans i received the other day
7. my laces are finally out and untucked.
8. study of hands #2, in progress.
9. Lanie and her knickknacks
10.Terri and her treats
11. glazy donuts! mm mm.
12. Went to USS for the first time with the tennis mates the other day. Rode the Battlestar Galactica many times. It's the only ride with the kick!
13. Monster Rock was so good. I loved the rock music and dancing and all that jazz.
14. Dino-SOAR: cutest ride ever. ilovepuns
These few days got me thinking.
Decorating my future house. Growing herbs in my future garden. Shooting with a camera equivalent to the Canon 7D. Going on a holiday. Travelling to places i've only seen on TV. Painting on more canvasses. Creating more clothes for my wardrobe. Catching my favourite bands live. Catching up with old friends easily with zero awkwardness. Loving someone. Having kids and sharing the kind of bond i've never experienced before.
What if I didn't get the chance to experience all that?
Would my life still feel fulfilled? Would it feel like i've already lived?
How can i live each day like it's my last?
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M U Z I C
I've been listening to Ben Howard religiously, Mumford & Sons all over again, and recently discovered a girl named Elle Graham.
Friday, May 18, 2012
health is wealth. right now i'm terrified i'm going to lose the only wealth i have.
and this one simply needs no reasoning.
